My name is Justin Reid and I am an atmospheric scientist and data engineer who currently works as a federal contractor for NOAA's National Centers for Environmental Information. I've known how to program since I was 17 when I took AP Computer Science while in high school where I first learned Java. Since then I've worked with various languages and technologies as a scientific programmer but my main language is Python.
Even though I am not true "code newbie" as I have many years of work experience the biggest problem I have had with not just software development, but all aspects of my career has been inclusion and community. I am the first person in my family to get a 4 year degree in a technical field and I am a first generation university graduate. Because of this and due to the fact that I am a nearly lifelong bullying victim, I have struggled with connecting with the various communities that I have tried to join over the years. One of the reasons why I have had to strongly develop my self-learning skills isn't just because of the rapid change of technology, but also because I have never been handed anything and I have always been forced on the periphery. The words "too busy" are what I am most familiar with when interacting with other colleagues in technical communities, and I hate to say this but a lot of the time I feel that I'm being avoided.
This feelings may be unfounded and be from my own nearsightedness, but to be honest at times even as I make progress I feel as if I am being passed by. I have worked and "continued to learn" even when my life was falling apart, and picking up a text editor or an IDE disgusted me, but yet I am still here in this field. And even with all these feelings I still owe my career to open source as I wouldn't have been able to learn what I have or do what I can do without it. But yet, every time I look at an open source project, I feel like I am looking through a glass window at a community that has always been happy, but yet is something that I am not good enough to join. Via things like chasing Github issues I am still obligated to run around and dig that inspiration out of myself once again. But it's only due to the people that I love that I still have that in me, not the "heroes of their field" who are honestly too distant to even be called "inspiring".
So what are my "goals" for joining this forum? The same as thing as it always has been, even well before I was a programmer. And that is simply acceptance. For once, just once, it would be nice to see those so called heroes live up to the ideals that they tout and actually be open to others. When it comes to community all I've had is my own self-directed learning, so I really don't need help there. All I need is for someone to just show up, and not have me chase "experts" who honestly couldn't care less. If I can't find that here I will move on to something else, but maybe things can change.
Thank you all for your time,